Hello family and friends, I want to update you all about a change in our plans. This morning I awoke with an uneasy feeling in the pit of my stomach, I can't really describe it, it was just uneasy. I went to the couch to read my devo. like I usually do and the very last line in it was something Corrie TenBoom said, "Do not hold tightly your possessions; hold them loosely, that way when God takes them out of your hand it will not be so painful." That didn't help my feeling any!
I went ahead and called to check on all of our flights and hotels to just make sure I had everything lined up correctly and while I was doing that our agency beeped in. It was Sonya, the Russian director, delivering us some bad news. A Russian family came in the orphanage 2 days ago wanting a child. They picked, who we thought, was our next son. It was all confirmed this morning. Our agency went to bat and fought tooth and nail for us but b/c we haven't signed any paperwork there was nothing they could do. Sonya was distraught. This has only happened 2 other times in over 20 years of our agency doing Russian adoptions. She had not eaten or hardly slept since yesterday, worrying over all of it. I sat there in shock.
She told me she could tell us about another little boy that had just came into the data base, he turned 9 months old on the 15th. But she wanted me to process this all first. I told her to let me call Jason and see what he has to say.
I called Jason and cold chills ran up my spine when he said, "Well, we won't lean on our own understanding but the Lord's. This child needs a home like every orphan does." So I called Sonya back and asked them to e-mail us the video and a pic. and his medical. Of course, it wouldn't open on my computer and we needed an i-phone to get the app and Jason was on a job. So he came home, had to do something to his phone since it wasn't working correctly and an hour later we could finally see his video. He is Eurasian, absolutely adorable, big stout guy. At 8 months old he could pull himself up and stand. He laughs and plays in the videos. The agency offered to pay for all of the stuff we have already paid for if we decided not to go. They also offered to pay for a dr. to come meet us with our first meeting with him and examine him. He seems and they all say he is healthy and much stronger than the other kids his age, I believe that just from the video.
So we are still leaving tomorrow as planned. We have been on our face this a.m. We trust the Lord. We know He alone is Sovereign. I know He is going ahead of us and even though I can only see an inch in front of me, He makes our paths straight, He guides us. We have asked Him throughout this whole process to shut it down if it wasn't His will. Seems He is opening another door. His plans are good, I will cling to this!
Surely God is my salvation;
I will trust and not be afraid.
The Lord, the Lord, is my strength and my song; -Isaiah 12:2
I have that peace that is indescribable. What's crazy is the feeling I had this morning left completely after I got off the phone with Sonya and Jason and I have total peace about this. Yes, total peace. I am sad we lost our first referral but he has found a forever home, and I will pray for his sweet face still. I am also looking forward to what the Lord has in store for us and meeting this new little one.
Please pray for us, I know I have been asking for a lot of prayer here lately, but if you happen to think of us during this time, please pray! We are ever so grateful.